The idea of lucid dreaming facinates me, as well as the whole aspect of being able to control when and how much you need to sleep. Sleep is one of those things everyone acepts as necacary but never really thinks about, they deny they ever dream and never cast a thought to how much of their lives they spend unconcious.
I’ve tried it before and failed, but I’ve never properly logged it before, so here it goes. I’m going to try going polyphasic, and I’m going to put this here to motivate myself, so there’s evidence I can blackmail myself with if I fail, so I can see in years time, what exactly was going through my head right now.
Time scares me. In the way most people are scared of being mugged or of armed robbers, I’m scared of time. Most of the time it’s irrelevant, most of the time it’s the furthest thing from their mind, but maybe one day, they’ll be standing in the bank, or they’ll be walking along a dark street at night, and just for a moment, the thought will flash through their mind.
What if.
What if he pulls out a gun.
What if there’s somebody hiding behind the next corner.
What if I die tomorrow.
What if, tomorrow, the day after, in ten years time, I get into a crippling accident, what would happen then.
If I died, would anyone remember me?
When I die, will anyone notice, will the world just end, how solid is this reality? How much would it take to destroy everything.
When I fail, when I die, maybe this will leave a scratch. It’s already changed my life.