Fresh Start

December 7th, 2009

Starting again tonight. This is a statement of my motivation.

Thinking of buying myself a proper, expensive hairbrush, what with all the money being saved on shampoo and conditioner. :p Plus I get the feeling the hairbrush I have at the moment sucks.

Hair is only greasy along the parting at the top, at the ends it’s all nice and dry and stuff, hopefully it’ll all be like that eventually, once my head’s calmed down. I’m considering washing it every other day instead of every day. It takes like, three hours to dry… But maybe a good hairbrush could help with that too. I’ll stick with this routine for now. It forces me to put away time every day, which is nice. Before I just showered when I started to feel dirty enough or when I felt really annoyed. :p

I had an awesome dream this morning, there were several people all in this big country house, looked like it hadn’t been touched (or even dusted) for 100 years, they were locked in and trying to get out, doing detective work, finding hidden panels and stuff in the walls. But the best bit was, I was half dreaming I was watching it on telly at the same time as being one of the main characters. (A woman.) It looked like Murder She Wrote, it was rubbish quality and everyone was dressed like it was the 80s. I was enjoying it but mum woke me up. All the characters had split up and I was the woman, she’d just spotted a hidden compartment in the top right corner of a room, and was about to start climbing the wall to see what was behind it when I woke up. (It had one of those gym things against it like you got in school, folds away flat against the wall when not in use)

Was fun.

This was a dream.

December 3rd, 2009

Once we even saw something as big as the palace touch down, to either let somebody on, to let somebody off, whatever it was it took barely a moment.
two boys
there was a lot of people on the mission to start
the two fat women who were there when it was over
dads flat
old house
the statue of liberty and the neverhand
the lego puzzle
the mission to get the man
the falling through the floor, through the fans to the abyss
losing everyone from the boat, but the boat wasn’t the palance, the boat was smaller
everyone was frozen to ice and killed
reminded me of the wizard of oz
it wa beautiful

I was dreaming I was lucid dreaming, walking down the road, in the dream I was walking in reality, but I was asleep too, lucid sleepwalking, I’ve had a few days that’ve felt like that… Walking where I knew I was walking, but seeing it differently, I guess. I walked to the alleyway at the end of the road where we used to live, and I picked up an unused cigarette from the floor and put it in my pocket, to prove it had happened, to remember by. Maybe this would have cropped up as an item later in the dream?

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Beep

December 2nd, 2009

I reset. Going to bed at reasonable times for the next couple of days, before starting again. Slept from 8am-5pm today.It seems like such a waste of time, sleeping so much! I was enjoying all the time I got at night to just mess around. I did the dishwasher at 5am this morning and it was nice, because I felt like I didn’t have anything else to do with my time, it was free, unallocated.

I’ll try properly this time. I’ll follow the naps as closely as I can and tape over my volume control again. Maybe I won’t be on such an adrenaline high the second time around.

And In the other experiment, one thing I have noticed about my hair is it takes absolutely forever to dry now. It’s not itchy or smelly or anything, it just stays damp for ages (I checked, it doesn’t smell of anything) It feels oily at the moment, but I had a shower an hour ago and it ALWAYS feels like that afterwards before it’s totally dried, even with shampoo and conditioner and who knows what else. When it’s dry, it’s not as dry and frizzy as it normally is, but it’s not yet as bad as I was expecting, it still looks normal.

It does seem to be tangling easier than normal though, normally I can go days and days without brushing it or anything and it still looks exactly the same, but now it seems to be knotting up at the back a bit if I neglect it for a day.

Hmm.

December 1st, 2009

On a different note, my hair still feels ok. Just making sure I brush it well and properly every day.

Been trying to use a bit less soap too and a patch of sore dry skin I’ve had for long enough that I’d given up trying to make it go away, months and months, has cleared up and healed completely in under a week, so that’s interesting.

I piss myself off so much sometimes

November 30th, 2009

Fucking… Went to bed at 8:30am because I was sleepy, set my alarm nice and loud, woke up at 1:30pm to discover I’d turned the fucking thing off in my sleep. Peeled off the selotape and turned the volume knob on the speakers. WHY the hell would I do that. Everyone says “Oh it must’ve been a concious decision” and mum said “Why am I always the one who has to wake you up!”

Like I wanted to oversleep. I am fucking annoyed at myself. -_-

Maybe I’ll record myself through the webcam, see what the hell I do, if I’m concious or not.Maybe it’d motivate me to NOT fuck up.

Maybe I should go to a 10pm-7am pattern and hold it for a few days, adjust properly and then try this again, maybe the sleep deprivation would kick in properly instead of this adrenaline high I seem to be on right now, where I rarely get sleepy, but once I’m out, I’m totally gone.

Day 6

November 30th, 2009

One thing about this sleep pattern, days seem amazingly long. I had a shower yesterday morning and it feels like 3 days ago, did I really post the blog about the dream less than 24hrs ago? I guess it’s because I’ve got no solid beginning or end to my days.

My pattern got screwed up today, I overslept slightly, from 10:00-11:00am, I must’ve turned my alarm off in my sleep or something… My screen was on when I woke up and the knob on my speakers was turned right down. I need to put more tape over it, but everything always goes missing the moment you need it…

The next nap was an hour earlier than it should have been (14:00-14:30), that was the one where I dreamt, then I skipped the one at 15:00 because I’d just slept, and ended up missing the one at 19:00 as my brother was here and nobody would leave me alone. I dozed at 22:00 instead of 23:00 (Because I figured I was an hour behind anyway) then again at 2am instead of 3am (But didn’t manage to sleep). 7am is the next nap then I’m back on the planned timetable, which I’m gonna try and stick too more rigidly.

It seems to be that I have an easier time sleeping during the day, which is odd. But I am used to being up at night and then sleeping half the day away. That Steve guy who did this said he slept better with a dim lamp on in his room. I need a lamp in here, and if it’s just a nightlight it doesn’t make much difference to me, if I wanna read, I’ll turn the big light on, just need it so I can walk from the lightswitch to the bed without falling over.

Those sunjars look pretty shiny, maybe I’ll try for one of those. I think I’ll also rearrange my bedroom today. I was trying to nap earlier, and I had a few interesting revelations, both about the layout in here, and about other things.

I also changed my alarm from 30 to 25 minutes.

First nap where I actually hit REM sleep?

November 29th, 2009

I dreamt I was meeting Tera again, no Chibi though. :( (I was sad about that) I’d managed to get off the plane and hadn’t gotten lost. Yay~ But I think I was wandering around looking for Tera, and there he was! I recognised you by the hat.

Didn get much further than that though as alarm woke me up.

It was a bit shakey though, I sort of knew I was dreaming. At least in the first bit, where there was also a bit of a dream where I was watching the puppies playflight, because they’re downstairs barking.

I think I mightve dreamt more than that but dreams shift around a bit and I dun remember. Something about kids and bikes and mcdonalds maybe and there was another bit where I was sitting here and messing with my little bottle of lavender oil but I spilt it and it reacted with something on the desk and turned into acid and started eating away at shit, and I’d got it on my hands and in my mouth. God knows what that was about.

Alarm woke me up just as we met and I woke up instantly, but feeling very groggy. 15 mins later the drowsyness is starting to fade a little.

Polyphasic Alarm Clock

November 29th, 2009

This is the alarm clock I made to wake me up after a nap, I always sleep in the same room as my computer, so it works well. It’s written with Autohotkey, which you can download at the link.

The script itself is available here ( DOWNLOAD )

You have to edit in your own music file, at the moment, for me, it plays this.

When you press the hotkey (Defaults to alt-gr) A message box pops up asking you if you’d like to set the alarm, if you click yes, another message box appears telling you the time the alarm will go off. By default, it goes off after 30 minutes, as long as you leave the messagebox open, as it goes off it also locks the computer until you type in your login password, making it difficult to switch off in your sleep.

4 days in

November 29th, 2009

4 days in, and this is what my chart looks like. The grey lines are planned naps and the very light blue are a halfway point for naps.

Today I changed my schedule from 12/4/8/12/4/8, to 11/3/7/11/3/7, it seems like a more convenient number, for some reason. Doesn’t look as pretty on the chart though.

chart
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November 22nd, 2009

Here I go.